Concern

I was just being concerned but you had to be so nasty about it. You may think that you did not shout or scold me, but i know better. I am afterall on the receiving end of it. If you find me so irritating, just call this off. I was just being concerned and so i asked you about it. You had to say I spoil your day. When you have nothing else to say, you just like to say that I am being hostile and combative......Everything you say makes sense but not me.

It HAS to be someone else's fault. If not you then me. I disagree. I thought you really loved me after everything but this week I seem to feel different. I'm not sure. I hate crying but this week, 2 days out of 7, I dropped a tear because of you. This should not be the case.

I hope you are enjoying whatever you are doing your self now. Just likw how you feel that my friends are always number 1 and that you are number 2, I feel that you have treated yiyun better than you treated me. I think you have an inferiority complex. Then maybe I have one too. I feel that I deserve better as well. But somehow at least for now, I dont feel it....That magic, that gentleness, does it still exist for you as well?

Does it?