Black vs White

I saw a friend's blog and then I cried. It was so full of her thoughts and longings, so much so that it made me think of mine. Of the relationships in my life.

Sometimes I think there is no such thing as black or white because. Because we are humans and this heart of ours sometimes makes us act in the strangest ways....I have so many questions but I know I am avoiding them. Shame on me.

I worry about his love, his emphasis, his committment. I know I am always no. 2. Happily ever after? With how many ppl please? Be positive I tell myself.

But then, you never really know what goes on beneth that exterior do you? How would you ever know?! Who can teach me that? I feel like a small girl all over again. i wish someone would tell me whats best for me. That step I should take. Love. Is love for life? Some sort I guess. How about mine? Can you tell me if he really loves me? Does he really love me as a person or for somthing more?

I suddenly feel very blessed and then I feel like I need to tell the people I love how much I love them. And then I wish they love me as much too.