I wil take care of you

Hey gal. You cant wear your heart on your sleeves. What did I tell you? You tell someone I love you too much and then shit happens. Just keep it in your heart. Just keep that big mouth of yours shut. Why do you have to tell him you love him so much. Why do you have to tell him you care so much. You mean he cant see?

He's so busy. Just leave him alone. You think you can make him feel better? Who are you? Do you know what you mean to him? You dont. Dont assume you do. You only think you do but in actual fact YOU have absolutely no idea at all. No idea at all. How many times has he rejected you. Asked you to go. How many times have you just sat there like a fool. waiting and waiting for him. Crying. How many times? You stupid girl. How long do you want to continue doing this? How many times? For how long more girl? How long more?

Just let it go. Why are you grabbing onto him like there's no tomorrow. Sometimes only time can make people learn. One day he will find that you are not for him. You also already start seeing that he has nothing.

Are you going to stay together just because of the fear that you will both be destroyed if you dont? Are you really going to do that? Do you really think you both can be married happily ever after? You really think so?

You stupid girl. You are sitting here with tears in your eyes, pain in your heart, cramps in your tummy and yet your head, you're thinking where is he, what is he doing, is he doing well? And he? He must be fuming mad with you. Thinks you are a bitch. Not even replying to your smses and you are stil like this. Are you mad or what. Dont you ever learn? Dont you? When wil you learn. When will you really open your eyes and learn!?!! How much longer do you want to go through this!?

Why is it never you who have him feel like that about you. Why does he NEVER FEEL SORRY FOR YOU. WHY IS HE ALWAYS ANGRY. WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS THE SAD ONE? WHY? WHY? WHY?

WHY DO I HAVE TO BE THE ONE WHO LOVES HIM MORE. WHY DO I LOVE SOMEONE LIKE HIM SO MUCH. WHO IS HE TO ME? WHAT WAS HE TO ME? TELL ME.

Darling self, so many people love you. Why do you do this to yourself? Why? Do you think you are not worth it? Do you think after him, no one else will love you, care for you, treat you like their own flesh? Do you think like that? That's why you allow him to play with you like that? Is that why?

You have to be kind to yourself. Please be kind to yourself. Look at all these people who love you. You have to love yourself. love them. Stop this nonsense to yourself. He's fine without you. You will be fine without him. Leave him alone for a while. Let him do his own stuff. You do your own. You will be fine. I will be with you. You will be alright. I will take care of you. You will be alright. I will care for you and then one day the right man will come by and he will take care of you. And you of him. And he wil always make you happy. And when you make him angry, he will still care for you. Be by your side. You will be happy. Not like now. One day you will see. You deserve much more. But now, just do your own stuff. Care for yourself. Be healthy. Be happy. Be grateful. You are a wonderful girl. He will not understand. But you know. Love yourself properly darling girl. And one day real love will come to you.

I promise.