Today he asked me......if i am financially stable, will you marry me? he said that. Hearing his voice over the phone....my heart beat faster.....this feeling....
I paused for a long time.
He paused.
If I am financially stable, will you marry me?
I said I think I will.........he heaved a sigh of relief....
I felt like I was on cloud 9. It's almost as if he could see a future with me, almost as if he will always be there for me. Through good and bad. almost. I believed it and my heart almost burst with joy.
He msged me....you have to know your man is serious about you..... I thought this was it. almost. happy ever after.
But then we all know this couldnt be true. We had a small argument at night and this first thing he said was "not happy, hang up"
how could i be so stupid as to think this was all possible? not happy hang up? it's always like that isnt it. not happy, walk away, not happy, hang up. We can be so happy now but one day when something happens, he will turn his back and walk away....and i will be alone again.
the bubble burst and the tears fall. i thought we could be happy despite everything. I am so scared he will walk away like he always has.
Can you love someone too much for your own good?
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